BEING GROWN

The day it first hit me that I was grown was the day I enjoyed the sound of Jazz music.The humming melody used to bore me up until that day,and this was years ago.From that day onwards,I began to realise that I have started seeing things a whole lot differently than I used to before.

I used to feel like my responsibilities are for my parents to foot,but from my new perspective I learned whatever I got was a bonus,no one owes me(any longer).

I braced up  to my decisions and took responsibilities for whatever consequence it may lead to.I learned I should assume more responsibilities and I gracefully did.I began to realise that there is joy in being kind.That a clean heart is more priceless than diamonds.I learned to value friends and strive to keep friendships alive.

I have learned that in matters of the heart,it is best not to accept a man's advances or proposal if you know you would not love him wholeheartedly and without reservations. Sex is for my pleasure too and should never be seen as an obligation or a tool for barter or leverage.

I learned that no one owes me reciprocity,I should not expect to be treated the same way I treat others nor people should feel for me what I feel for them.I have learned that its easier to be humble than to keep up with arrogance.I have learned to be patient with others and with myself.

I have learned that God is supreme,His ways are indeed unsearchable and its best to surrender to Gods will because attempting to  subvert it is more futile than attempting to run away from ones shadow.I have learned that man is not God and every once in a while God Himself reminds that to people that choose to play god.

I have learned that there is a sense of pride in hardwork and hardwork is the wheel that transforms dreams and aspiration into reality. I have learned that happiness is worth pursuing,and being happy is not synonymous with money,wealth or having people around.I have learned that happiness comes from within,it does not mean absence of everyday worries,but its a decision to choose to remain happy in the face of reasons not to.I have learned that acceptance should be unconditional and with that,its more easier to love.

I have learned that tomorrow remains uncertain for everyone.Not all well articulated best of plans works out. I have learned that death is the end of life,we should be grateful for everyday we see, because we did not make more effort to keep alive than those who are already dead.

I still find alcohol pretty distasteful,I am yet to learn how to make top-notch fashion choices.I need to learn to forget after I have forgiven.I should learn to be more passionate about Christ. I know I still have alot of learning to do.

I know I should learn to be more humble, kind, patient,slow to temper, and ah I need to learn how to spin cash,to see opportunities and make the more of it,etc but  everyday I am thankful for these realizations.